Jack of All Trades, Master of None

HI :) Haven't blogged in such a long time i almost forgot my account password HAHA.

Recieved my EOY results and they weren't good which explains the title. I passed everything, got a B for almost all my subjects, and even the Cs were relatively high..... So I reinterate Jack of all trades, Master of None.

Can't take 4H2 in senior high, Rice is extremely disappointed. Many ppl can't tell though, so we will keep it a secret behind the many smiles, shan't we? :)

Math was exceptionally disappointing. Bio as well.

But of coz, one should not regret the past but look to the future instead...

Well, the future isn't bright either. Come on, face it, it's 3H2 1H1 now, sure i'll make good use of it, but... so will those who take 4H2. I'm at a disadvantage now, a huge one. Let me tell you why.

3H2 1H1, i have this to see me through the rat race. but... what will guarantee that i succeed? Econs, I'm sure I can get an A, with both parents majoring in that. I have interest in Biology, but if i take Bio, Chem comes along as well. and well, i don't like chem. Math is a must take. So if i were to take Bio, Chem, Math and Econs... which is H2 and H1? Math has to be H2. If i were to take Bio and Chem, two hard to score topics, i might as well take them as H2. That leaves Econs as H1. But what good can an A in H1 do? Not much. This combi will be heavy, even though i will take econs as H1, that's 70% of H2 and more self-studying, i'm at a greater disadvantage as compared to those taking econs H2. It will require tiring amounts of memory work on my part, and with it lots and lots of frustration.But, it will leave many doors in Uni open, everything that requries bio, will be left open option for me to consider next time.

Then again, there's another option. A more... relaxing option. One that requires hardwork, but not as much as the one above. Computing, Math, Econs and General Studies in Chinese. Few people take Computing in Junior College, the bell curve will not be as steep, and the class size will be smaller, which probably means a better learning environment and more attention from the teachers. Econs is again an A. General Studies in Chinese, tho i will probably have to work on chinese, is one of the most marketable H1, and being similar to GP, a relatively light topic. This light combination gives me more time to focus on math, which i can guarantee an A with hardwork and little carelessness. BUT... it closes so many doors in University. What choices will i be left with? Law, Business, Accountancy, Arts and probably Math under Sciences? Law, Business and Accountancy requires almost all As. SO if i don't, im left with Arts and Math, which i am not interested in. 

So how? Hur. 

I would like to thank my beloved school for placing so many restrictions on taking 4H2. It's the best school ever.Thank you for ruining mine and many other's futures. Honestly. 

Onto happier topics then :)

Mr Han gave me this book YAY :D

Thank you guyz, for being such a remarkable class and forever being so inclusive. Will miss the shared times we had together as a class. You guyz have definitely shown me what true friendship and family mean. 

See you all in SH! <3

Since pictures speak louder than words...

I'm gonna miss my class so much... It clashes with my slight excitement for SH.

4 Dubstep, you guys are the weirdest, craziest, funniest, happiest, bestest batch of people I have ever known

#4D'13grads

xoxo Beatrice

September Holidays

ITS THE HOLIDAYS

But im planning to mug through this one week... Im done with most of my hw alr actually! YAY :D

Hahaha this is gonna be short.

Teachers' Day celebration was awesome :) we had more then enough food and the games was super super cool! HAHA and Mr Wu and Mr Han got the Most Caring Teacher Award! Congrats :)

GEM was awesome as usual :))

Yep ok thats it hahahahha
Told you this would be short ;)


OHOHOH AND SAM TSUI IS SUPER GOOOD HAHAHA

too bad can't go for his concert since its eoy period oh well ~

                                                             

Just came out ^

Both my favourite :) Heh 

OKOK BYE GOTTA GO :D

xoxo Beatrice Koh

Sometimes when I close my eyes, I can't see

My results suck.
but i dont feel anything. Is that something bad? Haiz. :/

School's getting pretty mundane and im frequently getting called by Khoo to sit up straight. >.< but the class is really boring... especially since i've done my work already.

Went for Gem and it was amazing as usual, church always gives me a lot to think about. :) and it's stuff thats worth thinking about.

I'm getting sick of school work. I dont know why. I'm usually pretty interested when it's not related to listening in class.

OK, anyway... my current attitude:

YEP, pretty much defines everything ._.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I EVEN PREFER HISTORY TO MATH NOW, I THINK MY WORLD IS UPSIDE DOWN. >.< I mean like, when was i even neutral to history? It's always been associated to ewwwwwwwwwww. ._.

But there is one thing good about CTs... I GOT 18 FOR LA ESSAY OMGOMGOMG ITS A PASS, ITS A B. i thought i failed ._. AND THANK GOD THAT I PASSED CHEM AS WELL ^_^

I think i've been unbearably angsty and irritatable this pass week, but because of that, i've also felt God's love and understanding. I truly tapped onto him to keep my temper in check and not to get overly... i dont know... like have too much character. heh. :)

Read about this young little boy in China in the newspaper. Someone made him unconscious and dug his eyes out >< praying for him and his salvation and that he will learn to know the Lord and will know that God has a plan for him :)

Was reminded by my mom not to believe in the PRAYER but to place our trust in GOD. Praying is a form of humbling ouselves before the LORD, it is GOD who has the power, not the prayer itself.

xoxo Beatrice

P.S. i always wonder who even reads my blog ._.

Whine Post

Heyyo just doing a quick post :)

Just came back from church. Beier felt sick and vomitted at church and i sent her home >.< Hope she gets well soon!

CT results are overall a real big disappointment :( Im still trying to get 4H2 for senior high but that requires like... a 3.4 GPA! >< that's high for me...

Haiz really dont get why the school needs such a high GPA JUST for 4H2. Other JCs have almost all their students doing 4H2s. And for most scholarships, that's a minimum requirement. Wonder WHY the school wants to stop their students from getting scholarship. OMG WHY DID I CHOOSE THIS SCHOOL ARGH

I mean yea.. the school's pretty nice and all but... seriously? Some of their desicions are weird. Maybe they just wanna increase their percentage of As for A Levels... just speculating (and tbh i really think so)

Okayy, that's all for today. Here's my first (and hopefully only) whine posts.

      I needa do this. Argh school is pissing me off so bad :(

xoxo Beatrice

LIFE is happening right now outside your SCREENSSSSSSSSSSSS...

HEY PPL. Just wanna say I'm very VERY happy to say that i've not been spending a huge amount of time with my head bent over my phone this national day holidays. YAY 我不时低头族！

It has been a real happening week, marking the end of CTs and a lot more time spent in church! :)

Chem and Math 2 were pretty hard... let's just say that Chem didn't work out AGAIN and it was one of those rare moments that my brain wasn't working during Math 2. But what's done IS done, and i can't possibly go back and change everything so let's leave it be for now. Besides, CTs is a very boring topic to blog on. ;)

Class CIP

IT WAS FUN! MY GROUP MANAGED TO GET 103 NOTES SO PROUD OF US <3 And AMAZING MS POH AND MR HAN TREATED US TO DONUTS! :D WHOOTS!

CARNIVALLOUS

Well, it IS a success...for the church. And i AM very proud of trinitarians for bringing their friends along. AND as a whole it was very fun and enjoyable. :) Can't say i regret going. But there's this one thing. Okay, maybe a few that keep me from truly enjoying and declaring that it was a VERY good carnival. No, im not gonna post what these are on the blog, but i just needed to state my displeasure. However, overall, the carnical was great. :)

Oh, and i invited Enyou to the carnival! :)

GEM

GEM WAS GREAT! :) It was amazing and wonderful in ways i cannot express :) God spoke to me and well, i think i know what to do with my life now with his careful guidance :) Come and join us, you will REALLY encounter God :)

Service

Service wasn't very impactful. But it was FUN :) It was more for those who are called to nurture christians, to be spiritual parents. I dont think i'm that. I dont like following through a process. I get bored :P

Anyways, i was thinking... i have quite a few posts with my friends and their photos... what if they bcome teachers next time and students stalk them like i do? LOL anyway just a random thought. So this is to all those future students out there: MAKE THE MOST OUT OF IT! ;) And all the best in stalking!

xoxo Beatrice

Mid CTs :)

I dont know if this week's been good or bad....Tests and all.
I dont even know how i did....it's either im doing everything right or well...everything wrong >.<

Anyways... I've been listening to covers on youtube and those by Sam Tsui, Alex Goot and Against the Current (Chrissy's really goooood) are pretty good :) Go listen!

Here's one: 22 by taylor swift :)

That's all for now! :)

xoxo Beatrice :)

CTs are coming!!!

OMG I'm frigging worried about CTs and all...there's so much to study with so little time! Everyone's feeling the stress now, and we are all freaking out!

Oh... and i've started a food instagram so go check it out... my name is: the_singaporean_foodie :) YAY

HAHA ok bye :) I'll blog more after the CTs :D

BUSYYYYYY

HEYYO LOOK WHO'S FINALLY BLOGGING

Yes, thats me.

Sorry for 'abandoning' this blog for a whole month, but i really missed blogging....so here i am! Term 3 is such a tough time, im like rushing to revise for CTs with tons of hw and presentations to prepare at the same time! ARGH >.<

But at the same time i luv the business.

AND ANTR WAS SUCH A SUCCESS! <3

LOVE THIS AWSOME PEOPLE

Really thankful that i had this really awsome team to see us thru this wonderful journey. And our mentor too, Weiqi, who is not in the pic xP

THE EVENT WAS CHAOTIC EXCITING AND AMAZING :D

New LA Cher is great too :) she's really strict and sacarstic, but she's equally funny and cool in her own unique way :)

And i dont need to take electives coz of LDP YAY :D

ok... thats all the main stuff that happened for the past month

OH and i need to give the presentation on ANTR this coming fri :)

I think that's all for now... coz well...the title >.<

xoxo Beatrice

Hazy days x)

HELLO :)

It's been a hazy week (which explains the title ;)) but the haze is getting better so far, with all the cloud seeding and change of wind direction.

well, cant say i enjoy the haze but... well, as a fellow twitter user puts it, 'this is the closest i've gotton to a natural disaster, and it's slightly, just slightly, EXCITING'

it has certainly been a happening week, and i've never appreciate twitter that much. singaporeans have apparently been able to look on the bright side of the haze, with the memes and all, and i've nv seen singaporeans this united

FROM YAHOO NEWS ;)

everyone's always eagerly looking out for the PSI and the ocasional funny vids

and i find that Singaporeans are really cute HAHA ;) or maybe its just our generation eh x)

Now the singaporean fashion is to wear mask, N95 or not.

ok, onto more serious issues that i really want to express my views on...

Indonesia calling us childish...

and then saying this: 

HEHEHE DAMN JOKE

who's the childish one here? the smoke THEY are causing is affecting the daily lives of Singaporeans, we definitely have the right to complain and ask them to take action. i understand that by calling us childish, they are trying to prevent Malaysia from pressuring them as well, but seriously? dont u think....that by calling us childish, it is ironically proving that they are the childish ones instead? (plus come on lah, they think they are the only ones that have trees meh, aiyo) 

And then saying that  they are not gonna apologise...

OMG hahahha i kindda burst out laughing when i read that. and i certainly agree with our Law and Foreign Minister that we are so NOT asking for their apology. come on, they have been apologising for the haze that has been happening EVERY YEAR. we dont need another insignificant and meaningless apology, we need this HAZE to stop enveloping our country. i think we understand if they need time to correct this issue but the way they put it, it is as if we are demanding an apology and it is not their fault. come on, even the newspapers have published that the fire is from lands owned by indonesian companies, and even if it has been spread by the farmers, well....they are their people. 

they told the press that the Indonesian companies should not be blamed...

and b4 that they were trying to blame our Singaporean companies, how nice.

haha ok so that's all for hazy issues for now :) glad that its getting better now.

xoxo Beatrice 

Sleepless NIghts :)

HI

I just found something interesting on youtube

Singapore Compliant Choir

OK. That's random ._.

Anyways...yep sleepless nights. Haven't been able to fall asleep the past few nights seems like my insomnia's acting up again HAIZ

And so... with all the trying to sleep, lying on the bed doing nth... i kindda did lots and lots of brain work also known as thinking.

I think i've changed  a lot lately...or to be exact the past 1 year.

yea not only physically but well mentally/emotionally too i guess?

Sure, i've grown taller by quite a bit and i guess im uncovering more abt me and who i am... hey but im no where near.

And if you ask me... i really hate myself at times.

And i mean that negative feeling is getting stronger.

And no not that i wanna kill myself or anything liddat.

It's more of a 'i really really feel like bashing myself up' kindda thing.

It's like i really dunno why i give the wrong reation at times.

Dont give me the you are supposed to be yourself and theres no such thing as wrong reation and all

And this is not a poem even tho this line by line thing makes it seem like one.

It's just that im used to reading ppl, and giving them the reaction i want

And that includes suppressing what i really wanna say and do

I just well serve to please

But lately that's not the case

I am seriously NOT giving people the reactions they want, and well that's wierd

And i get cranky....and im no longer slow to anger.

I get angry pretty fast now..... and argh i have some problems hiding it.

Which feels weird.

And i can't keep smiling when i dont feel like it anymore.

Like i mean if something goes wrong i cant keep the smile on my face

Like it will momentarily appear then disappear

Which feels weird coz.... well i smile a lot

Ok end of rant and all >_< i really dont want my blog to become some ranting site

SO... back to sleepless nights

I think i have a split personality. Or at least sth liddat. And i know which one is the real me... but i dont want to part with... the other me.

Makes sense?^

hmm let's just say the smart aleck, care-free kid you see most of the time... was built by me. Was established strongly and put in action since i was young. A projection of what i want others to see me as. And well... that's not the real me. This me doesnt hv a care in the world, has a slight AP, might be slightly AA and is a real friendly person...and this person is actually not me. Pretty creepy huh. I really dunno when i started with this but it's like what i want people to see me as. well, im not dropping it any time soon... it works well in this society i guess.

Well, as for the real me...i guess its slowly revealing itself while i fight it off so i can keep on my cover^

As far as i know, i dont trust anyone, analyses every single person i see and can be quite focus >< yep, lets just say i discovered i cant trust anyone HAIZ which you can kindda explain y i nv have many good friends...simply bcoz i dont trust everyone and anyone around me! And well i caught myself judging others too many times to count... which is scary.

So... that's all for today i guess. I hope i dont freak anyone out.

Alone with my bro at home for these 3 days. Had fun! :)

xoxo Beatrice

First Week of Hols!

*ahem*  HI THEREE :) just realised i didnt post my full well... post the previous time >< but i did finish what i really wanted to talk about heh. But anyway, this is dedicated to my FIRST WEEK OF HOLS WHOOTS :D

i figured SG's june hols is kindda like summer break

with this weather :)

So with my smiley face and all... i guess you can tell that im pretty hyped up and its been a great week x)

I must say this June hols was well timed.. as exciting, aweshum and kewl this half a year has been, i think we all needed a break...perhaps pretty badly.

So WHAT did i do so far...

Day 1... slacked at home most of the day and went to eat texas chicken with Mom and bro :) OMNOMNOM i still love KFC a lot more...but i think texas chicken seems....more real (referring to the chicken here) 

then after slacking around and all, went for a meeting with mentor Weiqi, Mel and Yijun at Boston Seafood place and it was not bad apart from the fact that im kindda allergic to seafood .__. And we settled a lot of details that we were still relatively unsure of about A Night To Remember, quite a productive night :)

Day 2... SMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ok, theres actually only one O. BUT IT WAS SO HARD I WAS MINDBLOWN WHICH EXPLAINS THE NUMBER OF Os AND CAPS THAT IM USING NOW COZ MY MIND STILL HAS YET TO RECOVER. yes, it was hard. I mean like super hard. i mean like i kindda expect to get a Participation *sobs* that's how hard it is. and yep, i got lots and lots of diff ans from Terrence and thats pretty freaky, coz between me and him, he's the math genius >.< 

Replace 'Math 1' with SMO and that would be me

And since i mentioned that mine and terrence's ans were totally different, yes i peeked at his paper BUT I DID NOT CHANGE MY ANS. really. like i looked at the last min and was like WTS then i didn't touch my paper at all and handed it up xP

Then went to eat lunch at Jap restaurant... with Mom and bro again. At J8.

heh.

Day 3.... LOL WAIT I CAN'T REMEMBER >.<

OHHHH... went to fetch Dad real EARLY in the morning (woke up at 5+) from the airport. Got to see the sunrise from the train but i didnt take a photo. It was really nice! I mean i was sleepy but i wouldnt do anything in the world to change that :)

Sunrise :')

And then had BK breakfast. Then slept like a pig for the whole day after that xP

Thurs: HAHAHAH HISTORY PROJECT AND REVIVAL NIGHT WHOOTS

Slept till super late in the morning then rushed off for lunch with Beier at church! which was quite fail coz i ended up eating microwave food from 7-11 x) Camillus arrived at 2 and we proceeded to do work (or more like he proceeded to do the work coz he drew, thought of most of the stuff, went home to draw a better one and coloured it after that and now i feel really BAD) I DIDNT MEAN TO BE SUCH A SLACKER :( SORRY.

Revival Night was great. Really. All 3 of us were touched by the Lord! :) Worship was really awesome as usual and so was the sermon :) It was about miracles :) And i think we all need miracles so it was very applicable :)

MIRACLES ^^

Friday: Slacked at home heh. Yep, i think that was all i did x)

not this slack but it looks so cool i just had to post it 

Saturday:

My normal busy mornings and then went for Definition! Yes, my very first time.... Oh well.. they didnt really hv cell this week, so i cant say that i saw the cell in action HAHA...Hmm but it was alright coz they were talking about fellowship and so on and so forth that i have heard so many times and how to bond and grow and love and seek God tgt... yep. And apparently they have this NEW BEGGINING book that i have to do and im kindda... yes sian to do it becoz...srsly...i've kindda been thru 2 of such books alr...and it feels like IM ALWAYS STUCK ON THIS LEVEL 1 THING T.T ok, i know that most of you will go like nooo its not level 1 and yada yada but yea... im always doing the same thing and i am quite bored of doing the same thing all the time when i go for bible study >.< It's like i wanna explore sth else ._. I JUST DONT LIKE REPETITIVE STUFF D:

Yep so thats my short rant. TY for reading xP Service was great :) It was about water baptism and they were doing alter call but i didn't go up. Sure, the sermon was impactful and all but... i mean the commitment that i'll have to make... i dont wanna give a promise that i wont keep xP i really needa think through all that first.

Dinner with church peeps and it was quite nice apart from the fact that idk half of them or what they are talking abt xP BUT THEY ARE NICE PPL :)

And Beier owes me one dollar :D

Sunday/today:

Im typing this so yep, im blogging LOL

And i finished partial fractions notes so im proud and all :)

Have you ever felt so lonely...even if you have so many friends?

true or false?

xoxo Beatrice